Dear God: The Blog

Never Too Late?

2009-12-16T22:29:00.000-08:00

Dear God,

I just watched the movie, NIGHTS IN RODANTHE. And as I was sitting there watching, and wiping the tears away, I begin to wonder many things. I asked my mother, "Is it better to have loved and lost...than to never have loved at all?"

I know that feeling love for someone, and someone loving you is a wonderful thing, but at the same time, I begin to ponder if loving and being hurt is better than not loving at all. It's not that I am a callous person, it's just I like to minimize the amount of hurting that I do.

Watching this movie I yearn for a kind of love that Paul and Adrienne find. Will you ever send someone to me to love like that? Will someone ever love me that much?

There have been two occasions that I thought you sent me THE ONE...but both times, something happened...and they could not show me the kind of love that I was showing them...what happened?

Did I love them too much and want to be with them soo badly, that it was unhealthy? Did I show them more love than I showed you, and you took them away because you wanted to prove that point to me?

I was told by a friend, that if I love God, that is the only love that I should ever need, and that should be enough, and I wouldn't mind being alone. But according to your word, you created Eve, because Adam shouldn't have to be alone.

I do have love for you, and maybe I don't express it in the right way...or I suppress it...

But I do pray that one day, someone will come into my life, who will show me unconditional love, and show me just as much love as I can show. I know that you are always with me...and that should be enough...

Is it wrong that I want an earthly love to go along with the spiritual love that you give me??

Please guide me, and give me wisdom in this area...and I will give you all the honor and glory,

In Jesus Name I pray,
Amen

How Come No One Told Me I Was Fat?

2009-12-05T15:40:00.000-08:00

I was standing in line at CVS waiting to get my pictures back. I had just done a speaking engagement with actress Sharon Gless from TV’s Cagney & Lacey and I couldn’t wait to see the picture of us! Although I wasn’t expecting too much, because during the event, I leaned over to my friend and said, “Wow, she has packed on a lot of weight since her days on Cagney & Lacey..but she still looks good.”

The clerk at CVS handed me back the photos, and I immediately tore them open…looking for our picture… I had taken a lot of photos that day, but looking at all the photos I was devastated…my picture wasn’t in there. I handed the pictures to my friend, disgusted that my photo wasn’t in there. My friend began sifting through the pictures…and immediately said, “What are you talking about? Right here is your photo!” He handed me the picture.

Looking down, I said, “No, this is a picture of Sharon Gless and some fat man, who is that?” My friend said, “That’s you!” Looking again, I was horrorfied. Oh my God, I was fatter than she was! My face looked like a basketball! I don’t understand it. I was thin that morning when I left the house…what happened once I got to the event?

In a rage, I drove over to my parents house, walked in, and slammed the photo down on the table. And I said, “Why didn’t either one of you tell me I was fat?” My dad looked me dead in the eye and said…”Well, we thought you knew.” The truth is,I was 315 pounds and I had something known as body dysmorphia..and in my case, it was the opposite of anorexia, because I always thought I looked thin. “Wow, this 17X shirt makes me look very thin!” And I would get such an ego boost every time I would go buy clothes, because I felt like a porn star…all of my clothes had XXX in front of them!”

In reality, I had what is known as Body Dysmorphic Disorder. What exactly is that??

BODY DYSMORPHIC DISORDER (BDD), is a disorder characterized by a preoccupation with an imagined or slight defect in appearance that causes significant distress or functional impairment.According to the Center for Change, it's estimated that Body Dysmorphic Disorder affects 1 in 50 people, mostly teenagers and 20-somethings with either a gradual or abrupt onset. BDD can lead other psychiatric problems as well. Depression, obsessive compulsive disorder, eating disorders, anxiety issues, and agoraphobia, are all problems that commonly follow or trigger BDD.

The irony of this whole situation is, when I weighed 315 pounds, I always thought I looked thin. And since that day standing in the CVS looking at this fat picture, I have lost 100 pounds, dropped 10 inches in my waist, and every time walk by the mirror I say, "Oy Vey, how did I get so fat???"

Ready To Transform The World, One Dream At A Time

2009-06-24T23:30:00.000-07:00

I have to say, that although today seemed like a very lazy day...somehow it was also a very productive and exhilirating day.

I usually start off the day by playing tennis...but since I stayed up until 2am watching a miniseries on DVD, when the tennis alarm went off...I decided my feet hurt, and I didn't wanna get up and go play, so I took the morning off and went back to bed.

When I did manage to roll out of bed at 9am..(it's sad when 9am feels like sleeping in until noon), I went to the computer to work on compiling lists of possible clients for my upcoming comedy and seminar tour. I have over 300 clients lined up...and will continue adding more and more.

After the list was compiled, I hopped in the shower...nothing like taking a shower with Tea Tree shampoo and soap to really feel envigorated.

Then I made the trek from my house down to Tempe to have dinner with a friend of mine, and attend an LOA (Law Of Attraction) meeting he was hosting.

This meeting was a great group of people...great energy in the room...and if there is one thing that I took away from this meeting, it was this....

I have a renewed passion for my DREAM COACHING. Now, more than ever, I want to help everyone in the world discover their dream, live it, believe it, and most importantly, enjoy it!!!

You only have one life in this current physical form, so make the most of it...and enjoy every single moment you are here....

DREAM BIG

The Fortune Cookie

2009-06-23T22:44:00.000-07:00

Tonight for dinner, I decided to eat at the China Buffet. I needed to kill a little time before a business meeting.

After my meal was complete, they brought my bill, along with the fortune cookie. I am always fascinated by reading my fortunes in the cookies....tonight, this is what mine said.

TRAVELING MORE OFTEN IS IMPORTANT FOR YOUR HEALTH AND HAPPINESS

Wow...how right was that darn cookie??

I am scheduled to do alot more traveling this year, and next....

Next week I will be heading to San Diego to play in my first MASTERS SERIES TENNIS TOURNAMENT of the year...

In September I will be heading to London...October to Las Vegas and Los Angeles...and December will be in Palm Springs.....

Next year the big trip is going to Cologne, Germany for yet another tennis tounament....

Nothing is more exciting than having a life and career that lets you travel and enjoy new places, new people, and new experiences....

Life is a journey...not a destination.....

When It Rains, It Pours

2009-06-22T21:31:00.001-07:00

Today was a great day!! Started off with a phone call from the movie produces for Brad Pitt's upcoming movie, MONEYBALL. They at first offered me an extra role in the movie, but then upgraded the role to a featured role! Fantastic! Filming begins soon.

Shortly after that, I got 10 new fitness clients for my classes!! Incredible...and they are going to get their family members to enroll as well.

Finally, the day ended with 4 college bookings for my comedy seminars!! It's a great day to be alive!!!

Manifesting a great destiny can be yours as well...

Until the next time we chat,

DREAM BIG!!

My Dream, My Life

2009-06-21T14:38:00.000-07:00

My dream has always been to write a book. Never sure what topic I would choose to write on, I have started many books over the course of my life time. These books are not UN-FINISHED, they are works in progress. All of these books will be released soon, with the first one going to the publisher as we speak.

It brings me great pleasure to see my first book, The Dream Weaver: Living Your Dreams At Any Age, see the light of day. This is a very successful book, and is bringing happiness to millions of people. This book and vision has spawned a Dream Weaver consulting business which is thriving, and a DREAMLAND ADVENTURE RETREAT series that has inspired millions of people to live their dreams.

My life is soo full and complete, with a list of books on the docket to be released by the publisher, my seminars and comedy shows are selling out, and my movie career is flourising.

The time to change your life is today, the moment to live your dreams is now, and the happiness you generate will last throughout your lifetime....

This is my life...make it yours as well!!